This is the week where I put everything to the test and put my money were my mouth is.  This Sunday I will complete the St. Patrick’s Day Tri in Keller, TX.  There are so many things running through my mind about this event.  Most of them are on the negative side, and that typically is not me.  There are so many doubts like “What if I my swimming sucks so bad, that they have to throw a life preserver in for me?!?!” or “What if I am so slow on the run, that the sweep van comes by and tells me that the race is closing?!?!”

Then I come back to reality, and tell myself….. “Seriously Jess?!?!”

I know all of the things I mentioned previously are not going to happen, and the reason I have these doubts is because I want to do the very best that I can do.  This is the time where I put all of the hard work I have put in over the past three months to the test.  There have been many things that took me outside of my comfort zone throughout the past 3+ months.  There has been running in the cold, swimming after doing CrossFit WODS and going to work every day, buying a bike that I have no idea about, and finally just living everyday life like everyone else.

I need to realize that I am not competing against anyone else, but myself.

I am very anxious and nervous about this event, because it is so outside of my comfort zone.  This is the time where I have to flip the switch.  It is time for me to make the choice to be fearful of the unknown or courageous to take on something different.  I am choosing to try and be courageous.  I have a feeling this will be the easier of the two.  I realize that failure is not an option, and this is because of the  support I have from friends and family throughout this journey.

The one and only goal is to complete this event, and give the best effort possible.  I will let you know how it goes in next week’s journal entry!